I went to the cemetery yesterday and took some photos of where Cindy’s ashes are buried.
I’ve spent some time over the last couple of months setting up a “new look” for the website.
And here it is… I hope you like it. I’m sure there are a few wrinkles still left to be sorted out, if you see any let me know.
This poem is one that the Holmans chose to read at Cindy’s funeral, but didn’t find a space to.
The dead are always looking down on us, they say,
while we are putting on our shoes or making a sandwich,
they are looking down through glass-bottom boats of heaven
as they row themselves slowly through eternity.
They watch the tops of our heads moving below on earth,
and when we lie down in a field or on a couch,
drugged perhaps by the hum of a warm afternoon,
they think we are looking back at them,
which makes them lift their oars and fall silent
and wait, like parents for us to close our eyes.
Today would have been Cindy’s 44th birthday.
To celebrate we are going out this evening to La Piazza for a meal.
John, Rose and I have spent the afternoon at Beningbrough Hall with David, Mimi and Jocelyn Campbell. Have climbed trees, run around, had scones and generally enjoyed ourselves. Toby has been working very hard on his graphics project and then went out with Tom Robinson.
John was elected onto the school council a couple of weeks ago – a boy and each girl get chosen by each class. Today they had their first meeting and John was selected to be President. It was a very close run thing, he only won by one vote. Tomorrow the world!
I had lunch today with Cathy. It was great to sit and chat with her.
John has been off school today with tummy bug, but he was well enough to go round Millthorpe School in preparation for moving up next year.
He recognised lots of the pupils who were there, which made him feel better the change – not that he seems worried. All the pupils were very chatty and seemed well balanced enough! I think it’s really difficult to tell what a school is like from the outside though. Toby seems to get on well there, so…
All Saints next week, but I should think it’ll be Millthorpe for John and Rose – there will have to be very compelling reasons if not.
It seems strange writing here now, which is one reason why I haven’t posted for a week or so. But I intend to carry on using the diary, so I’ll just start writing!
I feel as though we are very busy at the moment and that I’m running to stand still. The children are continuing with their various activities – gym, dance, squash, homework, school (of course), piano… which makes us busy enough anyway, and of couse there is only me to take and pick up. Lots of people are being very helpful with lifts and so on (big thanks to Saffron & Jenny, Mark & Michelle and particularly my parents), but it still feels busy. I’m also having a bit of trouble holding in my head who’s doing what when – but then the start of term is always like that.
I’m busy in the day time too – still lots of paper work to get through and it’s always nice seeing friends for coffee etc. I’m also playing badminton with Simon as usual and with Bill today for a change.
We’re all ok most of the time – quite tired, finding it a bit difficult to get to sleep, but mostly ok. All of us are sad from time to time of course.
The house feels very quiet – it’s like when one of the children go away for the weekend. You can just feel something missing all the time. I’m sure I’ll eventually get used to it, but it is strange.